Happy New Year to you.
It's 2 am January 3rd. This is my 1st blog entry for this year.
It is also my last.
Okay don't freak out yet.
Here's the deal.
I started this blog over 2 years ago with a mission. I wanted to document every thing that I loved about Ghana and the life here. At the time, I was very excited about Ghana, and this is what kept me going for 2 years. But 2 years later, I feel that the mission is accomplished. We have in fact documented so much of what makes Ghana awesome. To keep at it just to keep the blog going would be pointless.
I'm still excited about Ghana and my life here but now my focus has changed.
I have grown. I have moved on. In fact, I moved on 6 months ago. Six months ago, I thought of closing this blog. I told my friend Yaw Agyapong about it, and he said no. He wasn't going to let me walk away from another thing in my life. He'd watched me not complete a phd. I'd upped and left America. I'd quit 2 jobs. He was like..."this is not your facebook profile page". You can't just erase it and start anew. Hehe. I really used to do that in college. I had a habit of cleaning my facebook wall. I would sort of re-invent myself every few months. haha. He wasn't going to let me quit this one too.
I listened to him. I shouldn't have.
See, the world tells us that quitting is bad. That winners don't quit. That you need to have follow through. You need to fight to the end. You have to complete what you start.
Bullshit.
I am a quitter.
That is my strength.
And there is space in the world for people like me.
I quit the things I no longer have energy for and find new passions. It also means that I do the things I do well because I am fully present when I'm doing them. Unlike most people, I like beginnings. I like creating. I hate managing. I hate maintaining.
The kind of experience a person like me needs is not one that is gotten from doing one thing for a very long time. I need experience in creating new things. This means that I need to create fast, then move, then do it again, then move and again and again. Seth Godin would call this shipping. To stay in a place really long, the place has to be the kind that allows me to ship lots and lots of things. Advertising was a good career fit. As is entrepreneurship.
The reason I should have quit 6 months ago is that it would have saved us all the last 6 months of sporadic blogging. Mediocre entries. No love posts. No fun stuff. I'm surprised you put up with it.
I was boring myself to tears!
You deserve better. This blog didn't become the most loved blog in Ghana by being okay. It was awesome. The posts were beyond funny. Stuff you force your husband and your friends to read. Stuff you share with your co-workers. That's us. That's what we do here.
So, I think that if we are to continue this blog, it needs to get better, not worse. I'm not the person to do that job.
Believe me.
Which is why I am looking for someone to take it over. A friend suggested this too:) So many of you love this blog and want it never to end. Some of you still email me suggestions for blog posts. I would like to find someone to be the Resident Blogger for 6 months. After 6 months, we can find a new Resident Blogger. I will support the resident blogger with blog ideas.
Time check: 2:52 am.
Shit, I have to go to work tomorrow.
Okay, let's round this up.
If you want to be the Resident Blogger, or know someone who gets excited by all things Ghana, let me know. If I don't find anyone to take over the blogging here, then this blog will officially close and I will at some point publish a book of the best stories and those who have read and loved this blog can have copies to share with your friends and children 20 years from now:)
If you're wondering how you can keep in touch with me, I have just launched a new blog where I talk about my current interests. Come visit me there, follow the blog, and spread the love.
Time check 3:52 am
*sob** *sob**...... NOOOOOOOO!!!
ReplyDeleteok, now that's out of my system.
i understand all of your reasons for closing the blog, but i really hope you find someone who can be resident blogger.
I mean, i love all things ghanaian, i love them sooo much it sometimes annoys the ppl around me... but i don't know.... i've never really tried my hands on writing or blogging before... i'm more a reader.
WHere is the new blog???
ReplyDeleteFind it here: http://maameousbusiness.blogspot.com/
ReplyDeletenooooo! this blog is about that Esi flavor! how about this for a compromise: someone else blogs during the week but once a week we get Maame Mondays or Founder's Friday or maybe instead once a month we get Esi's Monthly Words of Wisdom or something (with a snappier name)? I'm sure you'd have something to blog about that wouldn't fit in on the new blog...waddya think huh? huh?
ReplyDeleteI am so sad you are not blogging anymore. I usually lurk and don't comment much but I just wanted to say thank you for sharing your life with us!! It was great getting knowing you and seeing Ghana through your eyes! cheers
ReplyDeleteThanks Esi... I have been reading you since the first moment I stepped foot in Ghana, August 2009.
ReplyDeleteYou have been my consolation from all the Ghanaian hardship I have endeavoured. You have brought smiles, and frowns to my face.
It is sad, but I am wishing all the best for you.
Esi!!! All I can say is I admire you a ton and you and your blog have been a great inspiration for me. Yes, the posts could end, but their impacts last through eternity. And like they say - nothing can ever really be deleted from the net. I admire your recognition of the need to move on and to take that bold step into new ventures. BTW, I'm coming home soon and I can't wait to see the AfroChic stuff! Keep being a pacesetter and see u soon inshAllah! Bisous!
ReplyDeleteOh Esi. I don't even remember how I stumbled upon this blog two, maybe three years ago. I was hungry for some connection to Ghana, someone who thought like I did, someone who spoke like I did. It was you. And I have been a faithful fan, seldom telling my friends about the blog because I didn't want them to read my comments and somehow know it was me:) I thank you for the honesty, even up until this last post. You have remained consistently you, and have never shied away from the theme of this blog-- to tell the world about Ghana and its people. I am so proud to have met you, even under such interesting circumstances... I still don't know what to think of Nubuke:) But thank you for this blog, if you must, please leave it up for those who still go back in time to read your best pieces.
ReplyDeleteThanks for the inspiration and now, the styles. Can't wait to support you in every way possible.
We will hear from you when we hear from you.
Nana Ama
What, Esi! It took you an hour to type an ending?
ReplyDeleteThanks for this blog, Esi. I got here by clicking a link someone put up on Facebook. Actually, it wasn't the first time I'd seen a link put up, so I thought, "what at all kraa is so great about this blog that people keep posting links?" One read, and that was it.
You've done great. All the best with your new blog. Oh, and thanks for letting me guest blog on the secondary school homoing here.
Aww, thanks guys:) Come follow the new blog.
ReplyDeleteI will try to not be stuffy:)
Nana! You think we're alike? That totally made my day 'cos i think you're way too cool. I love love love your style. I'm gonna have to come and raid your closet...if you'll lend me some hips.
@Gifty, maybe you should give it a try?
@Camille. I owe you so many emails and messages i don't know where to begin. But thanks for being my friend. I had a penpal from Slovenia when I was a kid so i feel a special connection...Thanks for following the blog. Come hang out on the new blog.
@varyfocal...aww. thanks for saying that. You should consider sharing your experiences on this blog. I'm sure others will learn from your experiences. Yes? No? Maybe so?
@Asomasi. It didn't take me an hour to type the ending. I spend the time writing the 1st post of the new blog, so that when I put the link up, you wouldn't be led to a blank blog:)
@Jemila. come and visit when you come to Ghana. I would like to know you properly. You should come check out the new blog. I promise not to be boring:)
This was the first time I stumbled onto your page and after reading several of you blogs, I came across your closing/ ending piece. I was very overwhelm with the "I am a quiter" statement. For once in my life, I felt that someone is like me. It gave me a new perspective on quitting, one that made me proud rather than ashame of myself. I am a writer, but after a very tramatic experience in Ghana, I have been experiencing writer's block. Haven't really written anything significant in the past 3 years! I have my undergrad in engligh literature/ and a minor in professional writting. I have started two post graduate degrees but ended up quitting. I move around alot, start new ventures, succeed and "move on" (which others see as quitting". I have been told I am experiencing a "spiritual attack" since I seem unable to stick to one thing. However, today I stand proud of my achievements in all my many endeavours. Quitting is not so bad, for doing something without passion is useless. I commend you and thank you for being a insipiration to a "quitter". It's not always a bad thing to walk away!
ReplyDeletei second Camille's ideas! there should be something like an Esi Monthly words of wisdom or founder fridays.. or something of that song.. and please,do not delete this blog.. I hope you've found a guest blogger by now..
ReplyDeleteyesterday i got a new subscriber to my blog. I asked her how she heard about it & what got her to sign on. She told me that after Esi Cleland made it public that she wasnt gonna be blogging again, she started getting withdrawal symptoms & went hunting for another good Gh blog.
ReplyDeleteSo i shd be happy ryt? but i'm not.B'cos your pieces were so authentic. there can never be too much of em stuff.
PS: You're so gifted in the art of breaking up. i mean you could ditch me and have me feeling guilty abt the whole mess. lol. Good luck with errthn!
You've done a great job with your blog and certainly educated most people about Ghana.
ReplyDeletePersonally, you gave me a voice. I am ever grateful.
I'm not going to lie, I loved this blog more when it was 'underground' (pre 6 months ago) and did see a change in the quality of posts. It seemed like you had run out of passion, steam perhaps. As an avid reader, I REALLY appreciate how honest you were with your thoughts on closing the blog, and how you thought about the quality of posts rather than keeping it going for it's own sake.
ReplyDeleteI loved the blog for what it was and I'm hoping someone as sharp-minded (whatever that means :P) will take over it.
Sending HUGELY positive vibes your way as you start off on your new blog.
Also, COME ON PEOPLE! STEP UP AND VOLUNTEER TO KEEP THE BLOG GOING! I could if I were in Ghana.
well well well... what can i say ! Its shocking and sad to hear that Esi wants to quit this blog.
ReplyDeleteEsi have been an inspiration to all of us through this educative and inspirational blog. Well i hope we all can find a way to keep it going. This shows how much we love to read about Ghana and the experiences within it. Lets keep the fire burning and who knows? Esi might change her mind!
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ReplyDeletefor me, this topic just happens to be something that I've been trying to find more info on for research purpose. Keep us the great and thanks a lot!
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I didn't like your move when I read this post the first time 7 months ago but I made no comment because...well, it was your call to make. I came back today to re-read my favourite old pieces and the argument of your "epilogue" now reminds of Miles Davis' endless reinvention - something the jazz purists and traditionalists hated. Some individuals live on breaking new ground and exploring the edge. I guess you are such a soul. Best...
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